Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock!

And I took another deep breath, trying to concentrate only on my breathing. There was a constant chatter inside my head. Then, I exhaled to the fullest! That’s how you are supposed to meditate, isn’t it? 

I was sitting in the same posture from past ten minutes. I tried letting go of my thoughts, the more I tried the more I failed.

Then, I stopped!

I let my thoughts disturb me, kept my eyes shut and now I focused on my thoughts.

There was this strong resistance to change. My mind was not adapting as fast as it should. It felt like somebody had chopped my wings off and I couldn’t fly any more.

I took another deep breath and exhaled!

It’s true when we say that the society is either rich or poor. I have always heard people say that, god is unfair. But with respect to time, we are all equal, do we thank him for that? We all have 24 hours in a day and every minute is under our control. Yet, we miserably fail to understand this opportunity. Instead, we complain and blame someone or something because we cannot take responsibility for our actions.

Corona is just a new virus playing with us and we all know that we can fight it. We are confident because we are aware of the existence of this virus. But how do we fight against something that we are ignorant of? Complaining, self-pity, procrastination, guilt, regret you know how this list goes.   

It’s been a couple of days since I stepped out of my building. No human interacting. I wake up, do some mundane activities. Start my work. Then, work more! And finally, go to the terrace and keep walking till I hit that 15k number on the app the counts my steps. Simultaneously, call people and crib and cry and invite them to join my pity party! After a hectic day like this, I collapse on my bed.

 A month ago, I was this dynamic person. Who used to accomplish so much in a single day and still crib and tell people that I don’t have time to do other things, like reading a book, or meeting people or spending time with my parents!

Now, I have TIME! Yet, I don’t do any of it.

“Shame on you”, said my mind.

We all have reasons not to do things but, is that what’s stopping us? Or what’s stopping us, is US?

Mind + Body fitness = Healthy life.

How much junk do we dump inside our bodies? And how polluted are our minds? We spend hours in gyms or other fitness classes just to burn the calories of that one slice of pizza or a scoop of ice cream. Instead why can’t we eat home cooked food and workout to stay fit?

When was the last time you spoke about someone? Was it a minute back? Well, we are so naïve that we don’t even realize how much time we spend on talking about others. Instead, why can’t we talk about ideas? Every moment is a conscious decision, we should choose wisely.

I opened my eyes and my mind seemed a little relaxed after venting out.

I thanked Mother Nature for stopping me and asking me to reevaluate my life. After a long introspection I realized, it was time for some action.

Day by day I made small changes. I started spending some quality time with my parents doing what they like doing.

My mother enjoys watching new movies or series but she doesn’t binge, something I could learn from her. I made a deal with her. So, we both are now watching a series and we don’t watch it without the other person. And guess what? It’s actually helping me save time for other thing. Coming to my father, he is a simple man who doesn’t drink a lot of water. So, I created a new game at home called “cheers”. The rules are simple. Whoever feels thirsty, that person has to get water for everyone at home. And we all cheers and do a bottoms up! Trust me, now my dad consumes more water than before. Also, sometimes in the evening we play rummy. We all pull each other’s leg, or tell stories or take turns and play music from each other’s playlists. This is how we are co-existing.

Also, the minimalist in me has awaken for real. I wear simple clothes and reuse them once they are washed. I haven’t touched lipstick in 48 days! If you know me, you will know how big of a deal this is. I haven’t shopped in a while. I guess I have started living my life more consciously.

Seeing the optimistic side of every situation helps us grow, adapt and evolve. I think I understand Darwin’s theory of Biological Evolution much better now. Which states, “All species of organisms arise and develop through the natural selection of small, inherited variations that increase the individual’s ability to compete, survive, and reproduce.”

I am a fighter and a survivor but more than that I am a better person today.